It's very frustrating for an atheist who was raised as a Christian to throw away old ideas and habits. It was so ingrained into my brain that I should pray to God. I was a good Christian and I prayed a lot. It's funny how prayer changed for me over the years. It was introduced into the mind of a gullible young child as a tool to get what I wanted, and as long as I was good, my prayers would be answered.
– As a child I prayed for stuff for myself, like toys, or a trip to Disney World.
– As a teen I prayed that the boy I liked would like me in return.
– As a young adult I prayed about my job and my family.
– As a mature adult I prayed for others.
– As a middle-aged adult I prayed for ill-will for the people who pissed me off.
I still find myself saying these little private prayers, "Please God, let [whatever] work out," or "Please God, take that miserable bastard off the face of the earth--he doesn't deserve to take up space here." Item number five in the definition below says it well for an atheist like myself. It's a craving for something. However, all the other definitions reference God or a person. I guess that's why I still find myself saying, "Please God..."
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